Fanfic

flusterbunny: this may or may not wind up being incorporated into the longer Kitty/Piotr piece I've got in mind, but the mood wandered into my head and wouldn't let go, so you get a monologue. Enjoy. ;)

( ... older than you think ... )

Obsessing Again

Do you ever have one of those nights where no matter how much you get done, it's not enough?

Where you fight and you fight to get words out, pictures out, images right, and you're on, and you're flying, and it's work and you're exhausted and you want to sleep but you don't dare -

- because you're all too aware that it's just one night out of thousands, but those thousands are limited, that there's a finite number of nights you have to get things done in, and you want to push just a little more -

- and a little more and a little more and dammit you can't finish in one night, you can't, the minutes and hours are trickling away and you're tired and your body's demanding sleep and there's just not enough time to get everything done -

- but you can't stop, either, because there simply isn't goddamn time in a human lifetime to finish everything you want to, and every letter, every stroke of color, everything, becomes part of one ongoing ripping tearing scream against the inevitability of death?

No?

Dammit. Must be just me then.